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Sunday, July 06, 2008
I have been looking into cart racing for practice. Its free and its close to the racing I will be in on the track. I have been running night and day thinking about it, practicing shift points. Exercises to stress more of racing movements. When my team ask me do I really think I can do this? The answer is the same as what it was 5 years ago! Hell yea I been doing it since then I can do it now at a higher level.
Just because things get harder doesn't mean I am ready to give up! I am to stubborn to give up and I don't know when to quit. I will give everything I got and u best believe I will not lose with out a hell of fight. I have faith in this journey that I will be one of the best racers well known! That is my goal! I want to work for it too! NO handouts! I can get here on my own steam!
You were told a story at 06:22 am by Deathscythe
Saturday, July 05, 2008
Back in the day: Car Pics! Friday, July 04, 2008
Im trying to figure out a problem I had as of recently. I believe I may have gotten a few friends up set. Maybe I am being misunderstood with this level thing. What I mean by that are I can't stand ppl who always need money and never pay it back in anyway, when they need a ride all the time but never to anything to show appreciation. Free loading like tomrrow is garanteed. Its not! They don't know where they are going or what they are doing. Just always help help help but no where to be found to lend u a hand. I dunno maybe this is a mistake to think this way. Im not one of those ppl and I will never be. I appreciate when ppl help me and I don't take em for granted. As for dating the more I think about it the more I have to say I stand behind it. Through my dating life I have dated all types of women and been in relationship with women of different ideas. None of them were like my own. That is where I am messing up! I can't be in a relationship with a girl who isn't behind me or atleast going the same way I am. It would just be waisting time! So if I am doing something that isn't normal then normal will never cut it. Someone will be hurt (probably me because I tend to do to much for a girl) and I refuse to let that happen when I know I am worth a lot more then what they are treating me. As for everyone else that is into that thats cool! They should be like that but they should understand its a huge difference. I never fit in with the crowd and I never fit in with most of the ppl I know because we arent the same, not saying thats a bad things. I like individuality but not in a relationship. I don't know anyone that has worked like that and I don't care if they do or not they aren't me. Im not a follower Im around leader or loner type. Its been with me forever im just now figuring things out after being screwed over so many times, Im the one firing off.  ( one kid doesn't fit in with the rest never have never will)
 You were told a story at 02:54 am by Deathscythe
Thursday, July 03, 2008
Things have been a little hectic! I just refuse to let anyone get the best of me again. I wont hold back on ppl anymore so I am giving 100% everything I have to blow the competition out of the water. Its been hard to keep it up too! I have been looking a lot at myself in my third person and I have been analsising my self to try and avoid making the same mistakes.
With the whole ring insident I am pretty sure I wont be able to be in the fast and furious movie now but that was my mistake in trusting someone like that. But now being out of the movie this means now my car doesn't have to be top notch. So this means instead of my custom engine work now I can get back on track with my racing career and put that money into my amatur license. This will put me in cart events. Further more the extra money will help me get my house! Woot what a unexpected blessing! Things are looking up! Way up!
You were told a story at 06:22 am by Deathscythe
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
I was at work and apparently everyone seems to be getting kicks now that I have been getting smaller. Jessie was the first bitch on my list. This fool had the nerve to keep talking shit to me. Saying I can't get a girl and so. I was like bitch are u crazy? I can have a girl whenever I wish, unlike u who looks freakish. After everyone laughed at him he then stood in the front door way in front of me and look down. I stared up and told him to keep it up I got no problem climbing up there to beam his ass in the eye.
Then his buddy Bill comes up! Hey Dorian I like ur sideburns in a smart ass way. I told him Yea I like my fucken sideburns too! Oh don't blow a gasket Dorian! Old man u got something worth listening too or are u gonna let ur dentures keep yapin?After more ppl laugh they decided to get off my case for a bit. 30 mins later BOOm! Dorian come to the office Dorian to the office! I was like wtf?? One of the top ppl have heard some info about how I have been lately so I was have to take mentoring classes at work now. BAH Bum Bug! Not my fault those two werent strong enough to take me on! Bitches!
 You were told a story at 06:22 am by Deathscythe
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
Its been every day I been working out in the gym to get myself in shape. Its been doing good also sparing classes are helping me as well. Its been tough some times but I have been making good progress. I also have been periodically giving my self time to just chill to myself. Trying to clear my thoughts and just recharge myself.
This has been good to help me with plans I need to do to keep up with my ideals and goals. This also helps me from burning myself out! Both my body and mind has changed a great deal and have seem to have gotten stronger. I can lift more, run faster, fuck harder, and think clearer. This should help me better to filling up the leadership shoes a bit better.
You were told a story at 09:00 pm by Deathscythe
Monday, June 30, 2008
Back in the day: Out me and my Racing
I have been writing beginning to finish threads for my cars to help out a few websites on how to get where I am at. I will post the entries up here as well. Even though I am really far past here on my car this should help out some! If I ever need reference!
Hello my name is Dorian. I am currently 24 and working 2 jobs to fund this project. I have no sponsors no rich parents and lots of bills! With that said and done I have always wanted to racer professionally as a career. I been into cars since I was born starting with the classic Transformers, speed racer, and sonic the hedgehog cartoons. In Elementary anything cars or robotic was my thing I love customizing them to my likings. Middle school I like wood shop and tech making little wooden battery powered cars, rockets, and etc. High school my major was Automotive and Art Making things unique. College after switching so many majors I decided to go to automotive where I graduated with my degree. After working on cars for so many years in different jobs I wanted a new approach. I prefer being behind the wheel rather then under it. Learning new techniques, shift points, etc. So This car out of my previous one is gonna be a street legal racer car. Well street legal for now at least. I picked a 2001 S2000 for two reasons. One I don't wanna have something that everyone else has I want to do something different. I haven't seen many ppl do much mod with a s2k. Secondly I wanted to do something on a high dollar side not to expensive but not common ether. I mean its a nice ride good interior, nice look, 50/50 weight, high rpm it has some good stock features. This will be the project race car. Now my beater is a 1997 Mazda mpv all beat up and crappy looking. I'm sure when the s2k is out for major mods I will have some free time to work on the Mazda just for the heck of it. Once u see pictures of both cars u will see what I mean. This thread is kinda like a start to finish thread. My goal is to have both cars done by the end of the year if not early next year about march 09. I will have photos up shortly I will keep updating as progress continues. 
 You were told a story at 09:59 pm by Deathscythe
Sunday, June 29, 2008
So far my plan is working fine my bills are back down! My major bills are now paid a head of schedule! Its great now I can concentrate on my credit cards. The first car will be my middle one of 1100 dollars and my car insurance of 1617 dollars. I plan to pay 1100 one first and the next month pay the car insurance off. After that one credit card is paid off I am gonna shred it.
After that I will have 3 credit cards left to pay off! Once they are all paid off I am gonna start working up back on the s2000 again and then move out and get me a house. With this plan I should have at least 2 of the 4 credit cards paid off by the end of the year. Woot I am back on track baby!
You were told a story at 09:59 pm by Deathscythe
Saturday, June 28, 2008
After a lot of thought I would have to say I am doing pretty good now. I know I have had a lot of ppl and I mean A LOT of ppl help me with my Thea problems. So many want me to forget her and move on. I have acted like I did but to be honest I can't. Its time to be truthful with myself. I will always love Thea, she got the very best of me so far in my life. None of my other girlfriends ever got the chance to see nearly have of what I showed her. Now granted I only showed her 1/3rd of what I got I was willing to give it all up for her. With this said it does not mean no I am a push over or I am gonna mess up my life. Any girl I was really in love with I will always have a some love for them.
I still love Kelly a small bit just because even though when she was truly pissed off at me she actually stood up for me when Tim and his gang were trying to pick a fight with me at bells ball. I still love Nina some because she was the first I really did want to work out. Princess was my the girl that was out of my league so much luxury everywhere. I still love Rachel with her clear open mindedness. She could think of things I would never pick up on. I still love Nikki cause the girl is so much like me its scary. Nicole I was very close to perfect she like sleeping with me, we never had a problem, she had a car it was great. Thea was special I was her first so I wanted to give her the best I got, but I failed and spoiled her.
Its funny granted 3 of these women are actually my friends now. If it wasn't for Nikki stubborn I would never try to be friends with any ex. I can't remember how many times I hung up the phone, ignored, got mean with her. But she is strong put up with my shit and stood by me. I really can't thank her enough for that because with out her help, Rachael help, and Nicole help I think Thea would have been a long time pain in my chest I wouldn't be able to cope with. And Eventually I would have started looking for a way to pay her back with interest.
With all this said I can say I am not over Thea and I probably will never be over Thea. Im not fully over anyone else! LOL My problem is ( like Nikki said) Im Naive. I see the good in ppl so I tend to give them a chance again. With Thea I would give her a chance again but she would have to show me she wanted it and that she is on my level. At least try to get a car and a licenses no more free loading or asking for money. But with that said this does not mean I am no gonna wait I am enjoying myself. If I meet someone else and they hurt me agian to well I can take it. I have all that I need to get past just about anything in life.
I have become a lot better of a man in each relationship I have been in. I know I am a good guy and I know I can handle anything that life throws at me. I may not be able to handle it well, correctly, gracefully, with finesse, or expediently but I will handle it. I know what it take to be on top and thats is where I am agian, back on top of my game. :)
 You were told a story at 09:54 pm by Deathscythe
Friday, June 27, 2008
Wow this blog has alot of history
I just realized I had this blog since Oct. 22 2003 lol! :P 
You were told a story at 09:59 pm by Deathscythe
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